Angel's AP blog

I was not in class today. I went on a Christmas tour. It was fun, and I enjoyed singing to the elderly. I enjoyed getting to communicate with different people through singing. Today was much better than yesterday.

I am so not satisfied with my grade in Mr. Rease class. It’s like everything I do I fail. I’m so tired of this. I am so ready to give up. It’s like actually trying is not good enough. I don’t have any support at school or home. School is not for me anymore.

I failed my EQT today. I didn’t think it would be easy, but I didn’t think I would fail. My grade is horrible in the class. My chances at being valedictorian are minimizing. I’m trying not to cry, but I don’t know what to do.

Today Mr. Rease assigned groups to work in. My group members were Iyonna, Hannah, and Landen. The task that we were doing was difficult. It was difficult because I always have trouble coming up with  themes. I, however, am glad that we did the task. I’m glad that I had extra practice, so when it is time to take the exam, I’ll be prepared.

Due to an ambassador field trip, I was not present in class. We went to Mertz elementary and helped with their Christmas extravaganza. I had fun interacting with all of the kids. I played name games with them, and I even saw some people that I knew. Compared to yesterday, today was awesome.

Today I took a short multiple choice test. I didn’t score well, but I know why. I wasn’t focused on the test at all because my mind was focused on what happened earlier today. I never cried so much in a single day at school. I cried because I am so angry at people trying to ruin my reputation with lies. I cried because there are really evil people in this world. I cried because I am mentally tired. And most of all, I cried because I had to come to the realization that this is the world I live in.

Today we reviewed retired AP prompts. We also discussed the difference between themes and topics. I am glad that we did this because it is easy for me to create a topic but difficult to come up with a theme. I always feel like my themes aren’t as concise as I want them to be as well as everything else that I write. I need to learn how to simplify things.

Today we continued reading The Color Purple. When reading I found out that Pa is not Celie and Nettie biological father. This was a huge plot twist. This also meant that because she was not his child he didn’t care about her. This is so sad for someone to actually do this to a child. Pa is definitely sinister.

Today, I realized that I like Celie’s letters better than Nettie’s. So far Nettie letters are boring and informative. Nothing interested had happened thus far. Celie’s letters, on the other hand, are very shocking and interesting to read. Her letters also introduced a variety of different characters, and all of them are different.

Today we were in groups. Each group was given two or three letters to analyze and present to the class. My group was given letter 52-54 of The Color Purple . I like those letters because we got an insight on Nettie’s life. Also I like my group members because we all devoted time to completing our assignment correctly. Overall, I am pleased with our presentation.

I was absent today because of an ambassador event. During the event I gave a speech. The speech was about a minute long, but it felt like it lasted a lifetime. I was nervous will giving my speech; fortunately, I didn’t mess up or sound scripted.

Today we created three claims. Those claims were based off letter 47 of The Color Purple . Two claims were about  Shug and Celie’s relationship. The other one was about Alfonso and Celie’s relationship. When creating the claims, I had a lot to say. I just didn’t know how to put it together in a concise way. This resulted in my claims being extremely wordy.

Today we had a substitute teacher. Since there wasn’t anything assigned, I continued working on my study packet. While doing so, I pondered my college decision. I don’t know whether I should go to Alabama A&M or South Alabama. Financially Alabama A&M would be the best option; however, South Alabama caters to my major more. I’m very overwhelmed, and don’t have anyone to guide me or give me any advice. In addition to all of this, I am very sad today because it is my dad’s birthday, and I lost my dad when I was a baby.

Today we worked on multiple choice practice questions and continued reading The Color Purple . We read up to letter forty five. In the letters that we read today, there were many character changes. For example, Squeak character changed tremendously. She no longer wanted to be called her nick name she wanted to be referred to as Mary Agnes. She wanted respect especially from Harpo. I like this about her and I’m glad that she becoming stronger.